Patterns we create imprint itself as neurological pathways in the brain that direct our thinking, behaving and feeling, in a certain focus, a certain direction, a certain pattern. When they are repeated over and over, these imprints become stronger and stronger and then they become habits. We’ve all seen these pictures of brains and then a wiring over them as a kind of electricity that runs in certain patterns.
Waking up this morning, thinking about love, sexuality, relationships, economy, having children, financial security and a sense of emotional safety. All of this is related. These thoughts were triggered because of a film I watched last night.
Lately saw the film ‘Pride and Prejudice’ and because Netflix thought ‘Sense and Sensibility’ would have my interest too, both from the book by Jane Austen, I watched that yesterday. When I follow the neurological pattern in the brain of Jane Austen that urged her to write the books, a certain theme becomes visible.
There is the purity of falling in love. But the characters of men the women fall in love with have hidden features that play out in the story. Then there is pain and disappointment that causes growing wisdom and insight. Then there is the right man for them. Another man than they thought at first, a man they had even despised and rejected but that was because of the missing information at the start and their feelings for them change later on. So love and feelings follow common sense in the story. Money and partner was very much related. Family encouraged that the women choose a man with money and good manners and behavior, respecting the chastity of the women.
The ‘wrong guy’ they fell in love with at first had followed desires in their life that didn’t fit the classical courting – respect – a marriage proposal – procedure. They had made a young girl pregnant somewhere. And so suffered from money issues. All this is hidden, kept secret for the women but reveals itself in the course of the story. They appear as charming men at first.
The ‘good guys’ appear as more stubborn unfriendly characters at first and a lot of gossip is going on around them that the women take for real.
The story plays out in the country, that symbols purity of living and the women live in more humble houses and cottages than the men but fortunately the men of good character and courage, something that reveals itself later on in the story have good money and a good position and a house too. The men have to leave the country side after an alarming letter a servant presents them on a silver tray, that causes them to jump on their horse immediately to sort out their issues in London. They stay away for long times that causes the women to suffer in uncertainty. But the men return at last and the real story reveals itself.
One rich guy fell out because his mother disinherited him because of his wrong choices of women, but ending up as true lovers in a humble cottage with chickens, this promotes a great happy ending too.
So money and the dependency on men causes great dramas in the feeling life of the women. They are on the verge of death because of it.
Good thing women are economically independent these days.
Watching these films, an opportunity was provided to see how the wiring on these matters is going on in my brain. I noticed how there where points in my brain, junctions in the wiring that began to have a higher voltage, like little stars in a network. It happened when I thought of London versus the countryside, Devon, where I lived. We too had an economic relationship with London. Traveled backwards and forwards between Devon and London.
London was ‘Londinium’ in Roman times. Deeply engraved patterns, both logistically, psychologically and neurologically. Thinking now about the impact of the church on the feeling life of people in Roman times.
While these little stars in my brain wiring intensified, impinging my head, I concluded to take refuge again with the yogis; freedom of thought and feelings, away from economic, relational and emotional dependencies.
A totally different approach. Rewiring.
It caused me to write all this down.
Because it’s about being in the world, but not of it.
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